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by Linda Kennedy
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(“Portraits by the Piano, 1961” mobile version)
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Two photos in a leather travel frame at my grandparents’ home.
Both men in leather jackets, leather caps with sheepskin
lining, same but different. I’m three or four and transfixed
by their handsomeness. I have to ask. Brothers.
They fought in WWII, one an infantryman, the other
a pilot. Heroes, my father, the youngest son, and
his oldest brother, Harold, the one, I’d learn: who taught Dad
to box in the backyard, found him sleepwalking on the roof,
rescued him, promised this brother a car
as long as a Remington block when he returned
from the war, the one for whom people drove from
another state—old classmates, teammates from Kannapolis,
from Duke—in buses to attend his reinternment at Arlington
Cemetery after he was exhumed in Austria and flown
home with four of his B-24 bomber crew, “his boys”
he called them, all identified only by dog tags six years
after they were shot down, the one my mother saw
at the foot of the bed, white shirt sleeves rolled up,
an arm across his chest supporting the other, holding
his pipe to his mouth, staring at his youngest brother asleep,
Harold’s face full of sorrow, the mythical one,
not the middle brother I would know, who dropped rocks
in bags of cotton before weighing, spent his Sunday tithe
on candy, tried stabbing his youngest brother for wearing
his leather jacket, who with the encouragement of his wife,
faked schizophrenia to get out of the army in 1943,
who never lifted a hand to stop her
from drinking herself to death, and, smacking his lips,
took her money, who laughed because his government
pension paid for his house,
who ground his heel on the dash of my parents’ new Chrysler,
told my mother his brother didn’t love her, only used her,
drunk, stomped a skunk to death,
cussed his father, stole a gun from the wall above his head
while he lay in bed, too weak, the one who raised a shovel against
my oldest brother, the one I called a son-of-a-bitch to his face, the one
who meant to ruin my father and did split the family business and the family
for his imagined due, who haunts us still through his sons, the one who
fed on Osage Orange thorns, poisoned wells, and cursed life
above and below the ground, ground my father—the sniper who
held a grenade ready to face enemy tanks—never had the guts to cross.
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